A.V.R.I.L.Y.N.

Sometimes I wonder...

2011-03-12T00:00:00.002+08:00

am I really happy with the decision I've made?

If only I could be that easily contented.

If only I could be more understanding.

If only I could think of happiness and be truly happy.

If only I could stop complaining.

~end of CNY holi marks the official start of my last sem in NTU~

2011-02-07T01:08:00.004+08:00

As the CNY holi ends and schools starts tomorrow, I can't help but remind myself again that 7th FEB, 2011 is the official start of my last sem in sch.

It's time to pick up the pace and chiong for projs, FYP, part-time work and job-hunting before the rabbit crosses the ending point in Dec 2011. The 1st 2 weeks in school has been pretty relaxed. Now is the time to go full throttle. FEB will be a very busy month, given that FYP deadline is in 1.5 mths time and I foresee the period after the experiments will be entirely torturous!

I need the motivation to finish my last lap in this rat race. STAY POSITIVE no matter how tough the going gets. TREASURE THE PRESENT which is a gift god has given to me and u. =)

I must remind myself always that...

2011-01-19T21:47:00.003+08:00

There is no greater regret in life than having to be separated without saying goodbye.

~Quote from 小孩。狗~

Learn to cherish the people around you becos you may not learn when will be the last time u'll see them again.

The fact is...

2011-01-18T00:52:00.004+08:00

I'm just an average person.

Well, the average person will have to strive really hard for her last sem which is starting in a week's time.

HANG ON and give it ur best shot for the last round! =)

After all, you can only live life once and do things once.

或许快乐是那么容易的。

2011-01-11T23:20:00.005+08:00

不平凡的人往往能令人感动。

令人觉得生命的可贵，人生的价值。

他们的不屈不挠，真诚的微笑与那容易满足的心灵，令人振憾，令人钦佩。

而我这么一个平凡的人却为了生活上的一丝丝挫折搞得像世界末日似的。

失去神气。心情跌入谷里，无法抽身。

快乐，灰心一笑真的有这么难吗？

伤心绝望时，不如学会苦中作乐。

起码悲伤中还带有一丝的快乐，一丝的希望。

新的一年我要送给自己的礼物：快乐。

那个笑脸迎人的女孩去了哪儿了？

我要把她找回来。

只有学会知足才能真正体会快乐，幸福。

大雨过后，彩虹就会出现了。

我坚信生活里的许许多多挫折只不过是磨练我的前奏。

与其埋怨，不如接受他们。

Race against time.

2011-01-09T23:22:00.002+08:00

NUS peeps are starting sch tmr and I'm reminded that I only have the remaining TWO WEEKS to clear whatever unfinished businesses I have yet to clear.

Cousin's wedding games preprations, FYP report, STATA101: crash course to analysing data, resume, spring cleaning, 3 storybooks, 3 times per week exercise, tuit, IT facilitator job... blah blah blah.

Really very behind time for FYP. I need to speed @ 100 km/hr!

Duno why the 1st week of 2011 had to start off with a flu bug tt had left me so tired and drowsy from all the medication.

Enough of ranting. TAKE ACTION!~!!

Our 5th Month-sary!

2011-01-06T00:38:00.000+08:00

My 2011 resolutions! ( tot i just wrote mine for 2010 not long ago!)

2010-12-31T02:42:00.003+08:00

1. Grad happily and smoothly >>> to maintain or pull up my CGPA! SPeaking of this, I'm reminded of 18th Jan, the doomsday.

2. Do well for my FYP. My last and only hope.

3. Decide on what I wanna do in future.
Some job that will allow me to make a difference to the society, some job that gives me self-worth. In the midst of exploring!><

4. Find a job by end JUl 2011.

5. Clear my debts! By Feb 2012!

6. Chiong tuits over the weekends to cover my liabilities.

7. LEarn treasure the people, events and happenings around me, including my loved ones: family, him and friends.

8. Lose weight!(always my resolution)

9. Exercise 3 times a week.

10. Continue volunteering @ CDAC. I've missed out quite alot having been absent for most of the time this year.

11. Be stronger, tougher and more rugged than ever. Sometimes, I find myself too weak as I fall prey to stress easily!

12. GRAD trip: Taiwan and Cambodia. Must save $$$!

13. Gain more new experiences. Be willing to step out of my comfort zone.

and the list goes on...

365 days to fulfill them! HAPPY NEW YEAR in advanced!

Looking forward to the string of gatherings starting frm today! 24 more days to my last sem in NTU!

29th Dec 2010: After movie shots!

2010-12-30T16:13:00.000+08:00

29th Dec 2010: Guiliver's Travel with u!

2010-12-30T15:38:00.000+08:00

Picture perfect moment II

2010-12-26T14:17:00.000+08:00

Picture perfect moment I

2010-12-26T11:18:00.002+08:00

This xmas I gave you my heart and I hope our love will last forever~

2010-12-25T14:58:00.005+08:00

This was our first xmas together and the first time you joined my friends and I for a gathering. Thanks for taking the first step, dear. It is such a coincidence that my friend’s boyfriend is your primary school friend! Haha everything seems so fated! Let's continue to work hard for our future ahead...

What a memorable eve and Xmas spent with you! ^^

幸福原来可以这么简单！

timE to start afresh!

2010-12-21T10:55:00.003+08:00

A new haircut. A new life.

YES I WANNA get a life and not waste my youth.

After sorting out my thoughts during my morning walk in the park,I've come to realise something. All these while, I had been living up to people's expectations. From young till now. And I'm seriously tired of doing so. I shall learn to be me. Cry, laugh, be mad. Just like how a child would express his feelings with no qualms.

It may be hard for one to do so but I'll learn to be ME. NEO HUI LIN. I must grow up. Life is too short to waste every day living unhappily, brooding over minor gritty issues that weren't worth being sad over.

I wanna try new things, gain new experiences. I'm sick of the conventional me. I realised I had been vulnerable to emo attacks(on a monthly basis) ever since I'm back in Singapore. And I'm really sorry that you have been on the reeceiving end of it.

A friend once told me. Life is not just about studying. It is just one of the aspects/phase in your life. Just make the fullest out of everyday and do something that you would like to do. An equilibrium is acheivable if you believe you can.

I was once enlightened by this fact during my OCIP trip yet the intense competition faced in this city has transformed me into someone who keeps seeking for the grass that is greener on the other side. Not knowing how to be contented sends happiness beyond reach. Happiness is so near yet so far.

I won't wanna wait till the arrival of 2011 to start making resolution. The day I end my exams is the day i resurrected. HUILIN, chase after your dreams. Don't be afraid to step out of your comfort zone.

Just Day 2 into my holi...

2010-12-20T22:40:00.002+08:00

And I'm feeling empty.

Maybe it's becos PMS.

Maybe it's becos I'm endorphin-deprived due to lack of exercise.

Maybe it's becos I can't stand rotting at home.

Maybe it's becos I'm a workaholic who can't stand not working.

Maybe it's just POST-EXAMS BLUES.

and I literally rot my day away just by completing Gossip Girls Season 1.

Holiday: Day 1

2010-12-19T11:59:00.004+08:00

whee! finally ended my turmoil after having 5 back-to-back exams within a week!=)What I can do now is to believe in the bell curve god and pray for good grades.I'll just slack for the next month before my last sem in NTU.

2010 is coming to an end soon. In less than 2 weeks time!

2011 will be a new exciting phase, with new experiences coming up. Some of the to-dos which are alr on my mind:

> FYP
> Job-hunting
> Grad Trip
> Convo
> New phase: Working life and the list goes on.

Given the remaining two weeks left before we usher in the new year, there's really a couple of things which I would like to do... including meetups with my dear frens whom I've lost touch with during the sem!

1 more day to exam but 1 more week to freedom =)

2010-12-11T00:05:00.004+08:00

My blog title said it all.

This is so fast! The week long exam marathon is coming.

The past one week had been very unbearable.

It all started with a sore throat that evolved into a fever and cough. TO add on to my suayness, my leg had been aching. Muscle tear or something I supposed. I can only know after I seek treatment after exams. An x-ray or something to see what's causing the ache for the past month. And so... I stopped my lib visits and cooped myself week long at home till today. Barred from my fav activity of unwinding- running, mugging was what I could only do.

Studying is boring but come to think of it, life as a full time mugger has its perks too. U have a reason not to do household chores. Plus there's hot-piping homecooked lunch and dinner waiting for me to savour when I'm in need of energy food. The only thing I could do is to study and study as if it's my fav hobby.

There were simply too much info to be inserted that tiny brain of mine. Studying is one thing. Whether I know how to apply is another. I need lotsa luck for the second last sem.

MEANWHILE JIAYOU and hang on!!! the worst will be over. Very fast. Before I know it.><

Looking forward to my month long holi and the new year 2011! ^^

3 months.

2010-11-06T17:57:00.002+08:00

3 words to sum it up.

I love y.o.u.

Yes y.o.u!

Counting down to the end of the SEM!

2010-11-06T17:45:00.005+08:00

YES it's alr more than halfway into the sem.

Oct had been a stressful and my darkest moments. But thanks to him and pple who've heard me out, I'm alr out of my blues.

Nov will be a better one. One that is full of drive and sheer determination. I promise. A sem in uni is like a 10km race. Just like how I persevere on and completed the NIKE CITY RUNon 24 Oct, I will push myself as hard till the end. =)

Prioritise, focus and persevere.

Left with 5 more weeks to go.

3 projs, 2 ppts, 1 oral test, 5 exams in a row and tADAH! It's time to say helLO to my holis, xmas outings and meetuPS with freNZ!^^

I MUST JIAYOU AND PUT IN MY BEST>>>>

快乐不起来~

2010-10-19T20:25:00.007+08:00

自身难保了，别人还求救于你。

人是自私的。

你须要他们时又不见得他们会出现。而他们须要你时，就会立刻找你。

真是烦不甚烦。

心情真是跌如谷底，无法抽身。

2010-10-19T08:08:00.003+08:00

this sounds very depressing.

But I'm really tired of all this work.

Never ending, vicious cycle.

This isn't the kind of life I want. at all.

Struggling to push myself to do what life dictates.

STRESSED UP!!! =(

2010-10-11T23:40:00.005+08:00

I know I shld be doing my readings for projects but I'm really drained and tired from all those ref books. my eyeballs are dropping out. =((((( With tonnes of unfinished businesses waiting for me to complete, there is no reason for me to be happy at this point of time.

Rest days are merely days for me to catch up but any delay in readings will lead to more of them stacking up like tt of uno Stacko, ready to tumble any point of time.

Maybe I'm just weak. Not as stressed-proof compared to my peers.

BACK TO THE DREADED READINGS >< I missed those days where studying and learning was fun and stress-less... I'm totally do not appreciate what's been studied at this point of time.

=) I shall make this my daily motto...

2010-10-06T00:15:00.002+08:00

Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself; I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn’t arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I’m going to be happy in it.

it's never too late to live, learn, love!

2010-10-03T02:21:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, one can really get so caught up with life that he/she can easily forget the importance of treasuring the things tt's ard him/her. I'm guilty of this.

Some recent news issues has set me thinking about the death being a part and parcel of life. Take for instance the life of 20 yr old girl lost in a car accident and the departure of Mr Lee's wife. Life is indeed very fragile.

Why is it that people will only learn to treasure once the things ard them are lost?
What would happen if you have no time to bade farewell to your loved ones ard you?
I wouldn't wanna have any regrets in life.

Note to self:
BUCK UP and really live everyday as if it's your last!!! This is the way of life I've been trying to adapt but to no avail. 3 months before the end of the 2010! I must really learn to incorporate this vision in life no matter how tough the going gets!

my 1st month in sch after 9 months of holi...

2010-09-23T23:03:00.002+08:00

Here's some of the unhappiness I wanna vent out!!!!

I'm seriously tired from the humdrum of uni life.
4 routine weeks had passed before I knew it.

1 moment I was complaining that I had no means to start my revision and the next, I'm starting to worry that I had no time to complete my enormous stack of readings. =X

Despite having a 3 day week, I was busy everyday.

Gone were the days when I could just sit around at home after sch and surf the net, watch dramas like no one's business.

This week, in particular, had been a tiring and stressful one for me. Having to wake up early for 830am lesson was no easy feat. To think that I spent the past Tue researching for my 3 projs at one go in sch the whole afternoon on my free day =( And my one of my proj was simply going nowhere as my grp mates and I were stucked whilst trying to ans our part.

# end of my complains.
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Here's some other happy things which brightened up my "dark" week:

1) Coffee which had seen me through 4/7 days this week.

2) The Jobhunting workshop conducted by Steven which was SO inspiring yet funny enough to send me bursting out in laughter during the 2 hrs workshop. Gained a new insight into the meaning of "convo" as my perception of graduating = the end of everything where one got to make a quick decision to find a job by the time convo comes or else he/she will gg. If one were to think carefully, graduating merely means "u r kicked out of NTU into the working society" and nothing more. For the next 50 years or so, you will be working your whole life. So make an informed choice and plan how you are gg to take off from your first step into the working world. Your first job need not be ur last job. Find out what interest u the most and plan to equip urself with the relevant skills that will prepare u for ur "dream career". Network. Ask around if you are not sure.

POSITIVE THINKING really helps. When u see urself doing well few years down the road, you will be more motivated and confident to progress on. JIAYOU!!!

3) The day I went crazy with my econs dearies=> Monday
Been a long time since we've attended classes together. Being able to spend that one hour of waiting time crapping and doing silly stuff like locking each other in the tut room really made me feel like we were back to our old days as freshies! I MUST relish their company while I can. Otherwise, I'll grow to regret one day upon stepping out into the society.=) I love school!

4) My SHG kid asked me whether I'm gg to SHG this sat and her "miss you" really made me feel the warmth in such stressful times.

5) Mummy for taking over some of my housework when she saw that I was too busy to do them., cooking for me.

6) Papa waking up so early in the morning to whip breakfast and herbal tea duper early at 530am.

Of course not missing the love of my life, who had never failed to provide me with his moral support whenever he knew tt I was down. And friends whom I missed terribly!

I must not succumb to pressure! Succumb to success will be the only goal this sem!

Into week 2 of sch! =)

2010-09-07T00:35:00.002+08:00

Week 2 of yr 4 sem 2...

Everything had been good so far except that I haven't started studying yet. I need my textbooks to mug and the only bookstore in NTU had to be so crowded when I wanted to buy my text today...

NVM, I shall resort to the Singaporean kiasu means of queuing up early at the bookstore on FRi morning to beat the crowd.

Life has been very busy so far for me with all the commitments but I'm contended with what I have now. Had my first Jap class in today and it was fun learning a new language. Unlike the usual econs tut, Jap class was much more interesting and fun! But like what the sensei said, it is not easy to master a language without overcoming the initial phase of recognising the words. I must give it my all this sem! now or never! jiaYOUs!

Just when I thought I have reached my saturation point...

2010-09-05T01:39:00.002+08:00

I found the reason to keep me going on. The motivation to help those who are in the predicament I was once in is burning stronger now. I started to see light at the end of the tunnel, why I'm forking out time away from studies, family, other matters just to see them once a week. =)

And it's all thanks to my 3 SHG sec 1 kids whose simple handmade TEACHER"S DAY cards touched me. It really warmed my heart to see them move on to a different phase in life over the past 2 yrs.

I actually felt guilty for harboring the thought of reducing my time spent volunteering at SHG in lieu of my busy schedule upon school reopening. However, their little act of appreciation for a volunteer like me made me feel that I could make some difference to them.

I was supposed to help them but they taught me something more important: TO be appreciative of things and people ard me and not to take them for granted.

Love makes the world goes round~

2010-08-24T23:19:00.002+08:00

Those who have love, have wealth beyond measure.

I'm fortunate to be one. =)

Just dance!

2010-08-22T21:00:00.005+08:00

STEP UP 3 was awesome! =)

Suddenly I feel so inspired to learn dancing...

back in Singapore for more than a month! =)

2010-08-19T10:14:00.004+08:00

It has really been a long time since I've blogged. This blog has officially been dead for the past 7 months partly because happy times are busy times too. I had little time to update each and every events during my half a year exchange program in China. Nonetheless, whatever happened in China: the places I've been to, the people that I've met, the lifestyle which I've led and etc will always be deeply etched into my mind. People always come and go, but it is the fond memories that will stay no matter where we are right now. =) The pictures taken during my stay in China will always speak a thousand words.

After being away in China for 6 months, I returned home on July 11, 2010. For the first few days when I was back, feelings of emptiness and emo-ness even set in as I started to miss the company, my housemates, the freedom and the endless adventures we had whilst traveling. I was seriously having problems adapting to SG culture as my half year of stay in China had already transformed me into a chinese. Whatever unglam stuff I did in China shall stay there. On a few occasions, I gotta keep reminding myself that I'm no longer in China.

Well, life in China and Singapore is pretty similar for me, in the sense that life is still busy as usual. In China, mon-thurs were spent interning, Fris and Sats attending classes and Suns shopping, travelling, gathering at friends' houses for steamboat/card games/movies.
In Singapore, I'm still busy with FYP, temp assignments, tuitions, volunteer, IT classes, yoga, running, swimming and of course gatherings with people whom I've missed when I was away. This was especially so in the month of August. I can't believe that I only have 2 rest days for the remaining days of Aug before school starts.

Life in Singapore is indeed fast-paced, unlike the times when I was backpacking in Yunnan, where life is so relaxed with no troubles on my mind. They always say that the grass is greener on the other side but for me I will say that Singapore is truly where I belong. After all, all my friends and loved ones are here and the country has really done well to ensure equal opportunites for all to grow and excel. =)

14th January 2010

2010-01-27T19:59:00.023+08:00

Forgot what we did but we spent almost the whole afternoon waiting for the agent and repairmen to come. Remembered combining lunch and dinner together and we had our first proper meal at Nanjing Dong Lu. Went to a shanghainese restaurant but the food totally cannot make it! Only the xiao long bao was alright. The fried rice that I ordered was very oily and salty. We were kind of disappointed with the first meal we had. Went on to shop around the vicinity and the guys brought themselves scarf and jacket while we girls just window-shopped. Had a try of shaved ice cream (like the ones sold in Can 2) in the chilly weather.

We went to metro(their equivalent of NTUC) again but this time with sufficient shopping bags. And the magnum ice cream here is duper cheap. RMB 9.99 for 5 sticks in a pack. That is like $0.50 per stick! OMG cheaper than SG! My housemate Sam was really going gaga over it and I ended up sharing a box with him. It’s really a good bargain!

Well, that’s for day 2.

Some pictures of the place we stay in..

The metro station that we frequent daily...

Housemates!

Our apartment...

The living room

The dining table AKA our common area for internet use at nite.

long outdated post~ 13/1/10 Arrival in Shanghai...

2010-01-27T19:48:00.007+08:00

Onboard the China Eastern plane:

My first time taking a night flight and it was so cool to be able to star gaze from the window. It’s like a universe out there! Totally STAR-STRUCKED! Luckily, Huiyi and I got a window seat and we need not suffer the inconvenience of those cramped middle seats. Had our breakfast 15 minutes after we boarded the plane. It was my first time having breakfast at 1:15am! The food was alright but their serving was big… Eggs, sausages, fruits, bread, yogurt all at one go. We were quite stunned by how fast the other passengers (whom I shall not name) gobbled down their food.

Arrival in Shanghai:

Reached the airport at around 6am. The moment we alighted from the plane we were trembling like hell. From Singapore 28 degree Celsius to -4 degree Celsius, we braved through the custom and arrival hall before changing into our winter clothing. Well, the day of arrival was spent aimlessly waiting at the GIP office for the rest of the GIP participants who had their flights delayed. From 9am we waited till 1pm before the agent sent us to our apartments.

For my group, we were the most unlucky ones. Initially we approached the 1st housing agent recommended by NTU yet they took a very long time to respond to our emails and only replied after we sent a series of emails. Despite us rushing them for more choices of housing, they had failed to reply us and had left us hanging there. Even till now, we received no acknowledgements from them that they are unable to find us an accommodation. Should we continue to wait for their reply, we would have not been able to secure housing by now.

Hence, we turned to the other agent JS Bridges at the very last minute. Although eventually we did get an accommodation, it was not one of the better choices. On the Friday before our arrival in Shanghai, the agent did confirm with us an accommodation in Zhong Shan Gong Yu. However, it was after the confirmation that they backed out and told us that the landlord was not agreeable to renting it to us for half a year. The trust that we had in their professionalism had been thwarted as a result. But we were still glad they brought us around to seek out the housing they had on hand on the day of our arrival. In the end after viewing a total of 6 apartments in Wang Bang area, we managed to settle for a 3 room apartment with a common toilet at RMB 4800 per month. Although the location is way off our work place(requires a train ride of half an hour), the rent is really much cheaper than the RMB 6500 that we initially need to pay for the counterpart in Zhong Shan Gong Yu. This is a plus point. Furthermore, there’s around 5-6 households of NTU GIP students living in the wan bang area too so this makes future gatherings more accessible. What a blessing in disguise. =)

After settling down in the apartment, we were so busy unpacking, cleaning up and getting the internet connection done that we only had MAC for dinner at 10pm. All of us were deadbeat.
Right after dinner, we headed to the nearby super market (Metro) to get our basic necessities like pillow, bed sheets etc. The worst thing was that they didn’t provide any plastic bags for us to put our items when we have 2 trolleys full of items and we couldn’t push them back home. GG! We were left with no choice but to grab every item and walked for a journey of 10 minutes back home in the frigging cold weather. Despite wearing gloves, our fingers were so numb from carrying so many items that it seemed like they were going to drop off anytime. =X

It was tougher than the Ultimate Challenge because of the extreme coldness that barred us from progressing further. However, with sheer perseverance, we finally made it home! The string of unlucky events had not come to a standstill yet. To worsen our day, the heater in the living room wasn’t working. Instead of hot air, it was generating cold air and that affected our state of well-being. It was a struggle to bath as the bathroom heater could turn cold anytime. The whole episode lasted till 3am and we did not have a good sleep at all due to our inability to adapt to the cold temperature. Huiyi and I were shivering all the way to sleep till the following morning.

What an unforgettable 1st day I had on my adventure! =X

long outdated post~ farewell SG, hellO sHanghai! (Part 2) 13/1/10

2010-01-27T16:05:00.019+08:00

Shall let the pictures speak for themselves...

long outdated posT~ farewell SG, hello Shanghai! (Part 1) 13/1/10

2010-01-20T20:13:00.011+08:00

This marked the beginnning of my adventure to AT land: Shanghai!I had been very busy days prior to the departure. Many last minute meetups with my beloved friends whom I will be MIA-ing from their lives for half a year. The feelings of unwillingness to leave drew nearer as the day drew nearer. This is the journey which I've set my mind on for the past year so any thoughts of regrets dissipate before emotions got the better of me.

I was really glad to have quite a number of friends and relativesto send me off despite the 1am flight. Some have work and school early the following morning and a few( weiting and peishi) even lived at the other end of Singapore. Your presences were much appreciated! Not forgetting friends who couldn't make it yet send in their wishes, I really felt loved!

Was there at the airport quite early around 8 pm to have dinner with my sec school peeps( SHY+JJ+JL+Wendy+Jasmine) plus Hui Mun and Ming Li at XIn Wang Cafe. Our last dinner before I leave! Had a pre-b'day celebration for Shuz too!

TO Shuz:
So sorry that I couldn't celebrate with ya this year...! Nvm, lets go for a gd dinner to mark our 10th anniversary of frenship with the rest when i'M back !^^

TO wendy and Jasmine:
It's great to cya gals after 1 year! Tks for coming despite having sch and work the next day... haha I realised we meet every year to celebrate SHuz's b'day...

TO huiying, yiwen, JJ, JL, Hui MUn and mINg li:
Though it was jus a simple dinner, I really *hearts* you all for coming! More pig-out sessions and HTHTs (heart to heart talks) when I'm back! Hopefully, you all gt new stories/statuses to update me!=P

In between dinner went to meet up with TKD peeps who specially came just to have a last talk before I fly.

To chengyi, wenxiang, yiming:
Tks for coming despite being sick(YM), so tired after work(wx) and school( CY). haha it's always fun to be with you peeps! Had a great time laughing at the comical acts that u peeps were up to! (esp CY and his lame jokes!) Although our HK trip may not realise this JUlt due to uncertainties in everyone's schedule, we can still [plan for a mini weekend getaway to perhaps THailand? Hopefully we can work things out.

TO nu-er(weiting) and tua-ji(peishi):
Tks for training all the way to the far EAST of SG...haha really appreciated ur effort in writing the cards. *touched*leTS pUB when we are back k! haha we've been procrastinating on this since last year?

Not forgetting chee yun and lai bun as well as my friends and relatives who were there for me too.. manY thanks for coming!(once again ><)

long daY no. 2...

2010-01-08T23:29:00.009+08:00

7/01/10 yet another long and hectic day for me...

Woke up duper early in the morning to settle some adminstrative stuff for GIP trip. Headed all the way to NTU just for the monetary gain which I'm more than willing to sacrifice for. =x

Thereafter, went to visit my ex-colleagues at SMS Infocomm during lunch hour and satisfied my craving for Maggie's lunch specialities! It's really heartwarming to have home-cooked lunch that is pipping hot under the luxury of air-con. It beats walking out to the crowded coffee shops under the sweltering mid day sun.

Mei jiao, Amelia, Maggie, Ana and I! The lunch kakis~

The long walk in that helped to offset the guilt built from snacking too much during work.

Although the company that I worked for last vacation wasn't as renowned as other companies that I've worked for, my colleagues @ SMS Infocomm were really unpretentious and this was the first time that I see no office politics among the staff. Although most of my colleagues were Malaysians, they were very amiable and caring towards a temp like me. Really greatful to have met such NICE colleagues! It'll be another 6 months before I join them for lunch again...=)

Rushed to the bank to telegraphic transfer the downpayment for housing agent before picking Mum up from the clinic after her surgery. How unlucky I was to be told that DBS offer no such service at the branch nearer my house... wasted trip. In the end , I had no choice but to head to Bedok central branch and travelled to Tampines again... So tiring... Seemed like I'm the most loyal SMRT passenger of the day. lol.

My last stop was to head to Shuz's house after dinner to scan the required documents for the housing agent. Luckily, she had a scanner or else I'll have to travel further just to scan the doc. TKs gal for being so ever ready to help whenever I need you!=)

eND of loNG day 2...

it'S 3 more daYS to shanghAi! *excited*

a lONg day...

2010-01-07T00:07:00.009+08:00

6/01/10 morning: kayaking at Bedok Reservoir with Jun Long

It's been a long time since i've kayaked. The last time I did was when during my 1-star course? haha really damn long... finally put what I've learnt to use after so long. Kayaking at bedok reservoir is 100 times cleaner than at kallang where the water is really disgusting...to think that I actually gulped down some water from kallang river when I was learning my capsize drill... *eeeks!*

6/01/10 afternoon: MJ with huiyi, Junjie and Jun Long

Had some lady luck with me when MJ-ing but sadly, we didn't play real $. Nonetheless, still enjoyed MJ-ing my whole afternoon away. haha good workout for the mind.

6/01/10 evening: dinner+ wii with Loo Wee and Yiming

The last time we met was half a year ago and the next time will be half a year later! We shall make it a point to meet once every six months... Although the wii was disappointing, I had a great time catching up with them! Come next year will be our time to graduate and join him in the workforce... can't believe that we are entering a new phase real soon! ><

My 2010 resolutions

2010-01-02T10:23:00.008+08:00

Don't follow your dreams; chase them.

I believe 2010 will be a very exciting year ahead for me considering that I'll be in away in Shanghai for at least half a year and won't be in town till July...

Nonetheless, some new year resolutions to kick start 2010:
- Continue to create many great memories with family and friends
- Learn how to express my love for the ones I care
- Tour other parts of China during my GIP exchange
- Stay healthy ( continue my exercise regime of jogging, swimming, badminton etc even when I"m overseas... i dun wanna come back looking like a 肉粽)
- Make many new friends @ work and sch ( inclusive of ATs and other nationalities) and establish my own global contacts...
- Give my 200% in work, studies and FYP (when I'm back)
- Be independent: in terms of taking care of myself and the peeps ard me.
- Be open-minded and accept people and their differences. Don't criticise and make judgements unnecessarily without proper understanding.
- Be financially independent.
- Learn how to cook
- Continue to volunteer at Tampines SHG in the second half of the year.
- Travel with sec besties to HK after my China tour

Most importantly, stay happy everyday amidst life's greatest challenges. 做个幸福小女人！Treasure every moment in life and not look back on things that have happened. Instead, try to make the next moment better and worth looking back on when old. One life, live it to the fullest! =)

-Life is either a daring adventure or nothing.
Helen Keller

Goodbye 2009, heLLO 2010!

2010-01-01T23:41:00.005+08:00

31/12/09-1/1/10: Spent the last day of 2009 and first day of 2010 in NTU with Yiming, wenxiang, chengyi, sky and darwin! =)
(too bad shuz, hy, seb and zs can't join us...)

We had our long awaited steamboat. It was a very full meal for us on the last day of 2009. $100 worth of steamboat ingredients coupled with durian and bailey(courtesy of sky)... luckily, no food poisoning incident for us =X and the shabu shabu sauce recommended by chengyi is really superb!

Ton at wx's room after steamboat and countdown. MJ-ed all the way from 1am to 5 plus in the morning... And i finally learnt how to play $ and count the tais after MJ101 Tutorial with Sky, Darwin and Yiming. Well, ended up paying some tuition fees haha but it's after all a learning process! Thereafter, we played some games like monopoly deal, saboteur. How lucky I was to keep getting the role of saboteur 4 in a row! maybe i should buy 4D since lady luck is with me... lol! Went for breakfast and we were in the eyes-going-to-close-anytime-kind- of -stage after a night of sleepless fun! really had an enjoyable time ushering the new year with u peeps!

post xmas celebration with guzheng gals..

2009-12-29T13:43:00.005+08:00

28th Dec'09: dinner+movie+ gaming outing with the wan sin, elicia and suting!

Been ages since I've met up with these gals! We had our post x'mas gift exchanges after dinner. Due to a change in policy, we received more presents compared to previous years whereby it' s lucky draw style. And I really liked the gifts they bought for me...=)

Wanted to play guitar heroes but it was packed so we tried Left 4 DEad 2! haha it was fun trying to kill all those zombies though we encountered some technical difficulties trying to navigate around...

It's my first time playin L4D2!

Alvin and the chipmunks 2! so cuuTe!

Ended watching the movie at 920pm as all the earlier slots were filled up. All of us were yawning before the movie had even started but the chipmunks were funny enough to keep us awake and laughing out loud. Not so bad a movie considering it's jus $6...though the plot was kind of expected.

=Reflections of the happenings in 2009=

2009-12-25T15:38:00.006+08:00

HOW TIME FLIES!

2009 will be coming to an end in a few more days.

Having spent the past year juggling school with part time work, volunteering and memorable outings with friends and family, I'm glad to say that I have spent 2009 meaningfully without wasting much time slacking like how I used to in JC. Looking back on the things I've done for the past year, I've definitely achieved some, if not most of my resolutions set in the beginning of the year.

As usual, I have striven to remain financially independent and survived well on my own earnings. This is something which I'm truely proud of myself. No doubt my family is poor but as long as we strive to make ends meet, we can still live a simple life with contentment. =)

Hence, one of my resolutions for 2009 was to volunteer my services at CDAC, the organisation which used to lend a helping hand to me when I was young. While others could afford expensive private tuitions then, I was fortunate enough to be able to enjoy subsidized tuition under CDAC. And I'm glad that I joined Tampines SHG and committed 3 hours of my weekend weekly to the needy. Once again my idea of volunteering has been proven wrong. All along, I thought that I would be on the giving end when volunteering. However, the friendships made and the fun that I've had in Tampines SHG with fellow volunteers and kids is priceless.

The other breakthrough was completing races and marathon. From my maiden race of 8km, I have progressed to 10km, 15km and then to 42km with sheer determination and endless trainings! The sense of achievement gained after every race is a miraculous feeling. Running has also given me new insights into how I should lead my life. Life is like a race too. With uphills and down slopes. Whether you complete the race fast enough will have to depend on your mindset. If u think u can do it, u surely will! =)

Other new interests picked up in 2009 are kayaking and Korean language which I have no inkling of initially.

Both my tutees Junel and Nurul have done relatively well in their studies. Really glad that Junel is able to go to a good school after her PSLE! Impacto mAde...

Looking forward to 2010, the year whereby I'll be away in Shanghai for my exchange! I believe there ll be more 1st hand experiences to come during the trip.=)

mErrY merry xmas!

2009-12-25T14:27:00.005+08:00

24th Dec 09: high tea with ms lim; KTV

Met up with our ex-sec teacher, Ms Lim for high tea. Been so long since we last met up with her. The last time we met was during Marc's 1st mth. Now Marc is alr one yr plus le and she's expecting another baby boy to be due in Feb next yr! =)

We are all entering different phases of our lives now with Ms Lim into the motherly stage and us into the adult phase. We have fate to thank for letting our paths crossed each others 9 years ago. Destiny is such a miraculous thing. ^^

Updated each other on our current status and she did really provide some insightful advices for us... After all, she had been through what we are experiencing now...

After pondering for a long time over what to do, we headed to Teo Heng for KTV since we haven sung for a long time. Yesterday's k-session was like a recollection of the old times when we used to hangout at Kbox during our sec school days. KTV with SHY always never failed to get me hIGH! Had so much fun and laughter dancing to NOBODY, SORRY. And we were practically screaming our lungs out when it comes to all these songs.

Tks peeps for making my day once again! =) It was good to have some precious moments spent together before I leave SG. U peeps are really my friends for life. Like how we watched Ms Lim transit into the next phase of her life, let us watch each other enter the workforce, marry, have kids and grow old together.

~no camp for 2010~

2009-12-23T23:28:00.003+08:00

shall take back my words for the previous post. Seemed like I ain't gg to make impacto in the 6-8th Jan camp after all... for a veri important person- MUMMY!

I guess it's time to fulfill my role as a dutiful daughter. MUM complained of a lump/tumor lookalike bump on her feet. Initially, I tot it was ... but luckily not. Accompanied her to doc and fortunately, it's nothing serious. Won't affect her but to to be on the safe side, we've decided to let her got for the minor surgery. And this has to be done before I leave SG else there'll be no one to look after her at hme in the day after the surgery. Hope she can recover fast after her op to send me off =)

camp b4 departure.

2009-12-22T10:52:00.003+08:00

The next few weeks will be pretty exciting and busy! whee! jus got confirmed for an upcoming CHA camp in 1st week of Jan! 6-8th Jan...actually i missed doing camps! camp instructor is the best part-time job that I've done... been more than 1 year since i did camp.

Hope i will enjoy myself to the max b4 i fly off to china...sHAll give it my best for my first and last camp in 2010. ^^

my travel companion in china...

2009-12-22T10:45:00.003+08:00

The one i can't do without in china.

Loving the pink hue and the memories captured with my fav. peeps!

met-ups

2009-12-22T08:32:00.011+08:00

12th Dec'09:

Marina barrage with SHHY+JJ+JL (Kite flying + picnic)

This time was unlike our usual outing whereby we just meet up for a meal.

Our second attempt at picnic but this time round at the picturesque Marina Barrage aka the NTU-ADM- look -alike rooftop. We also tried kite flying but to our dismay, our "killer kite" did not fly high high into the sky but seeked to strangle whoever stood in its way. wahaha...Wished we can hang out longer haha but doesn't matter. It's the quality that counts. Loved u peeps too! This is a bunch whom I had spent half of my life with. hehe. our 10th yr anniversary coming le wor peeps! haha are we holding some banquet stuff dining? hehe!

19th Dec'09: Electronics fair plus bitching session with shiyu!
(forgot to take pics)

Anw, finally bought a camera at great bargain at the sale. hehe cheap price with lotsa freebies thrown in! Love the shocking pink that is loud and AA.

21st Dec'09:

"bored" games session, chilling out session with the beloved tkd peeps(ym, wx, cy,hy, shuz, me and sky>> not in pic)

it's been a long time since we met up during hy's 21st party... These pple really made my day! as usual, we went to minds for "bored" games which weren't really that bored after all.

aLTHOUGH we haven been gg for TKD trainings, the occasional meetups that we had once in a while and the bonds that we forged 2 yrs back is surprisingly there...tkS everyone for making it happened.*hearts u all*

after our minds, we headed to aston for dinner and then starbucks near the esplanade there to chill. We had our HTHT session and it was nice hearing evryone's stories and the advices exchanged. At least i know what to do now.=)

Looking forward to the countdown cum steamboat session cum xmas exchange session in hall on 31st dec !

就是开不了口让他们知道。。。

2009-12-13T00:19:00.006+08:00

前天，老弟（阿源）终于入伍了！这可是我第一次到德光岛，也可能是最后一次吧！毕竟，我也不会有机会去参加他的毕业典礼了。到时候应该会在中国了吧!

尤其是到了说再见的那一刻，心里不经意感到有点不舍。毕竟，大家也生活了十几二十年了。作天早上醒来，发现一个人在房里，少了睡在地上的他，我突然觉得有点不习惯。说实在的，心里是有点挂念他！但我却没在道别时让他知道。有时候我也不知自己怎么了。。。老是不把心里想说的说出来，钻牛角尖。即使在乎心里所爱的家人与朋友, 也很少告诉他们自己是多么地珍惜他们，爱护他们。

我到底怎么了？

是社会的险恶让人不知觉在自己的周围造起围墙吗？或许吧。。。

想到再多一个月就轮到我向家人道别时，心里就有点不舍。目前，白天里，屋子只省下我们母女俩就有点冷清。到时候我离开后，妈就会更孤单了。想到这时，我真替她担心，更加放不下。

或许这次是我该越过自己那关的时候了。勇敢地向所在乎的人示爱了！告诉他们心里的真心话。俗话中的 carpe diem! Seize the day! 也就是这么来的。把握时机，珍惜每一天，勇于尝试新的事物，做想做的东西。

如今，离道别的日子也仅仅由于。我将要好好地珍惜与大家在一起的日子，留下美好回忆。
加油吧！我一定行的！=D

examS finALLy enDED!

2009-12-04T21:46:00.002+08:00

end of exams.

but somehow I felt no excitement compared to the past few sems when I would get all hyped up about post exams activities right after the paper.

tHis sem is the worst sem ever in my uni!
I bet I won't dare to check my results when the day of results release come cos I'm scared that i will get a heart attack...

ReaLLy worried abt my results but what's done was done. now can only pray real hard and believe in the power of moderation. =) shall enjoy the rest of dec in SG first before i left for AT land in JAN! outings and meet ups with those whom I haven been meeting up with esp SHHY and company!

wenT shopping for my essentials today! Yes, i mean necessities. And not those usual shopping trips that I would indulge in to satisfy my wants for material goods. haha cos i expected cheaper bargains awaiting me in AT land. Must save, save and save so as not to fall into the temptations of vanity items!

Things to do in Dec:

- Meet ups, gatherings with frenS!( KTV, movies, mj, picnic, pubbing)
- More time speNT with my family!
- LEarn how to coOk 3 菜1汤 from mUm.
- Brush up on my chinese and bring out the "Cheena" in me!
- Learn more abt AT land and read up abt the places to visit
- Medical checkup with 4 injections! *faint* ( can I don't take the jabs?=X)
- IT facilitating
- Exercising: jog, badminton, kayak!
- Complete as many shows and dramas as possible! be a 宰女!

tipping point. not.

2009-10-11T22:25:00.002+08:00

Really hate to say this but the truth is...
the FINAL EXAMS and DEADLINES are looming and they are just 5 weeks away.

sO many things undone yet to be completed within such a short span of time. Projs undone, ppt not cleared, assignment untouched and worst, I haven been catching up in lec, tuts and readings all this while. GG!!!

Seems like a need for priority reallocation should be done.

Just started on my new job today: weekend IT facilitator
Officially took over the class but I realized I'm bad at classroom management especially for P1 and P2 kids. really hate to admit this but I have a better working relationship with upper primary students.><

After today's lesson, I was contemplating whether to continue with this part time stint in view of my really hectic lifestyle. Somehow I'm not able to achieve a balance between work and study. For the past few daYs I've been crumbling under the enormous stress level that is mounting day by day. Every week just had to pass so swiftly with little work done.

Perhaps I should really weigh my priorities this time round.

Opportunity cost of $240 per month from work. A third class honors degree? Economically inefficient if u think long term. What's more, I alr have the intention to quit cos of my overseas attachment next year. Just a matter of sooner or later. Why not end it once and for all so that they can get someone with better suitability for the job too.

AlrightS! My mind is set. Shall tender my resignation soon. Give chor gin a call tmr.=)

HUi Lin will concentrate on her studies full-time.
Projs, laptop, heaps and heaps of readings, textbooks, lecture and tutorials shall be my bestest companion from 12Oct -4 Dec!!!

I MUST BE STRONG and FIGHT THEM ALL!!!^^

rOUND 2, fiGHT!

2009-10-05T22:40:00.003+08:00

yes, recess week officially ended yest.

Into the 2nd half of yr 3 seM 1. tIMe to accelerate and drift in this rat race.

thinGS to do= aplenty.

a mountain of readings, tuts to catch up with pluS 3 projs, 1 presentation, 1 assignment and revision for the final exaM. =S

muST chIOng chIOng CHiong!

was feeling totally demoralise, driveless during the recess week.

so i asked myself:
Why such unhappiness becos of sch work?
I must try to live every day happily no matter how stress life is.
cOmpared to those who suffered from poverty and had their loved ones lost during the recent earthquakes in developing countries, I'm much more fortunate. What they don't have i don't lack.

Yet I still live so miserably. No. I shouldn't be unhappy just because of so much workload. I should be glad and grateful for such privileges. A peaceful life, high standard of uni edu and of course family and friends who are always there to support me.

"Yest is history. Tomorrow is mystery. Today is present. That's why we call the present a gift. "
Like what the cliche saying says, one must liVe everydaY meaningfully, unraveling the hidden surprises life has in store for us.

shall wave goodbye to little miss gruMpy and welcome little miSS haPPy =) tmR onwards.

JIA YOU and stay strong >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

to someone whom i still treasure as a buddy:

i hope things will stay e same as it is from the start. i believe our friendship will go a longer way than BGRs. i could see that you were trying to make your intentions known to me. but I chose to run away from it.

somehow, I'm not ready for the commitment that BGRs ensue. and I don't want to lose a friend to a wrong decision made in a moment of folly. It is easy to get attached but the level of commitment devoted into the relationship is something which takes two to clap. I haven got any confidence in doing so.

I'm glad that I gave you my honest reply when you asked if u stand any chance. At least we put a stop to everything before it escalates.

Hope you'll respect my decision, buddy.

so MANy deadlINes to meet...rants

2009-09-29T23:02:00.002+08:00

iT's halfway through the hellish recess week. anD there's so much to be completed within such a short span of time.

I"m not done with He 306 when the dateline is in 3 more days. =X JIAYOUUUUUUUUUUU!!!
HE 312 and He 210 proj meetings on thURs and fri which i've yet to prepare for. ARGH!
and to worsen the matter, the stupid migraine keeps haunting me. =(

A date worth looking forward to will be 12 Oct when I"m officially tuit-less after my 2 kids end their exams and my tUrn to MUG!!! =) freed sat and sun morning for my studies. I hope.

B4 i look forward to my rest and relax session on Fri and Sat evening with my dearies, I mUST coMPLETE (note to self) :

1) ******HE306 assignment by THURS NIGHT 1/10/09!
2) *****HE 312 research by WED NIGHT 30/9/09!
3) ****HE 210 by THURS NITE/FRI/SAT!

P.o.s.i.t.i.v.e THAT I CAN DO IT! =)

call me a slowpoke.

2009-09-26T00:35:00.002+08:00

Yes I am indeed one.

Somehow, life has turned into one whereby everything seems to revolve around me like flashes. The speed @ which time flies is faster than my reaction. HoW? WHat to do? stop and stare? Definitely not.

EspeciallY when I have 101 things to do on my mind, I must aim to achieve what I plan for this week.... my days shall and will be packed to the brim from day one of recess to end of recess week....=X

Yet there is the opportunity cost of going out with friends. Lesser studying/ project-ing time. I must strike a balance between both. One week is really not enough.

This is a real test of my time management skill. failed or pass? we shall see.

I must SURVIVE the comINg WEEK!!!

pRojects are squeezing me dry...

2009-09-20T22:55:00.002+08:00

Is population growth a problem? Shld govt influence population growth?

Did financial globalisation play a role in AFC? Did financial globalisation play a role in GEC? Do you think financial globalisation is good for Asia?

And which topics to do for HE 306: Housing policy or effects of agglomeration economies? How can I crap a term paper of 12-15 pg alone?

Projects are taking a toil on me and these are the questions that I've gotta answer by the end of September as their deadlines are approaching.

The long HAri raya weekend isn't a holiday to enjoy at all.
Stucked with all these qns in mind, I wonder how I'm gg to past this week and the next.

SO much to do yet so little time. And for once, I realized I'm not enjoying Economies of Scale.

Enough of grumbles. Back to work.

P.s: Please let me overcome all these with strength and determination. How I wish I can fastforward to Jan 2010 when I would be in China enjoying my GIP.

yAyness!!! ^^

2009-09-17T14:41:00.002+08:00

feLT so haPPy today!!! finaLLy gt a chance to realize my wish of gg for an overseas exchange...^^

I got selected for GIP: Work and Study China... and HUIYi too! So if all's well, we'll be there for the 1st half of next year!!! omg i'm feeling so excited!!!

and the best thing is that wei jian our FYP grp mate encouraged us to go and assured us that he'll take care of the admin stuff for FYP while we are there... So touched by his gesture!!! HOpefuLLy, the three of us can make an invincible team together!

in the meanwhile, reality hits hard. I must work doubly hard for all my projects and modulEs this sem, LEVEL uP before gg for my "vacation" next sem! JIA YOU!!! PUT in UR BEST, HUI LIN!

tHis is what I mUST do!

2009-09-12T23:30:00.000+08:00

Knowing is not enough; we must apply.
Willing is not enough; we must do.

headache, headache go away!

2009-09-11T19:23:00.000+08:00

been experiencing quite a severe migraine since Tues night...and it's bothering me till now.=X

Perhaps it's my body's way of protesting to the enormous stress level that's accumulating for Yr 3 Sem 1.

FLooded with many projs and assignments this sem and it's definitely a hell lot compared to the 1st 2 yrs.

In addition, I've got 2 runs(NIke hUman race 09, New Balance Real Run 09), APEC, SHG and tuits to juGGle with.

LAST but not least my FINAL exams to prepare for which is about 2 months and 1 week away.

I need a better sense of time management.

RECESS WEEK is coming.

Imagine the life after RECESS WEek.

Definitely more hellish and gruesome than my present circumstance.

惠琳！不要轻言放弃，否则对不起自己。

证明给他们看你是行的！加油，加油，加油！^^

心灰意冷

2009-09-02T20:37:00.002+08:00

我的天空今天有点灰。

压力越来越大，专题作业开始找上门来，让人忙得不可开销。

升上大三的日子也与以往不同。

辅导课也变得更加严厉，负有挑战性。

在许多压力的冲击下，难免会渴望有个能依靠的人在身边扶持。

这时心里不经意就会想起他。

虽然我一再告诉自己过去的事早已成为历史，但回忆还是让人折腾。

尽管已经这么久了，我怎么还是放不下呢？把爱放开吧。。。

2009 的大半年已经过了，是该追求自己所渴望的幸福，快乐了！=）

目前，唯一能做的就是畅开心怀，以快乐的心态迎接每天的挑战。

眼前的路虽然不好走，但路是靠人走出来的。

我一定要战胜一切患难！！！加油 X 10000000000！

a reasOn for me to keep on running from now till Nov...

2009-08-29T22:55:00.000+08:00

NEW BALANCE REAL RUN 2009
THE ULTIMATE X-TERRAIN CHALLENGE
10km – 4km Trail + 0.6km Sand + 5.4km Taxiway / Road

Event Details

Date	8 November 2009, Sunday
Venue	Changi Exhibition Centre, Changi Aviation Road
Flag-off	7.00am (10km) & 7.30am (15km)
Start & End	Changi Exhibition Centre

joLted to my senses...

2009-08-29T22:33:00.000+08:00

Yr 3 SEm 1, into week 4.

Oh dear... 1 month into the sem and I've so much on hand undone. piLEs of readings, lec, tuts and textbOoks are still waiting for me. To add on to the heavy content, I have 3 bOoks on hand to finish: ANgels and demons which I'm totally in love with, Secrets of a millionaire and obama's biography.

Attended 2 workshops for the past week: Resume writing and interview workshops.

And I never knew how much preparedness one needs to do before seeking a job. Totally enlightened by the 2 instructors who taught us the secrets and techniques of making our resume stand out among the many thousands applicants.

iT was an awesome and enriching week for me because I finally understood what is required of me to land myself in the dream job tt i"m seeking for. And it's never too late to start gaining experiences for the competencies required in your future job.

It's time to revamp my resume which is so dead and not concise. Subsequently, it will be to take action and source for internship opportunities. I need to be more pro-active in building up my experiences!

So MUCH to do yet so little time! I must JIA YOU, JIA YOu, JiA YOu! =)

~whAT does noT kIll huI LIn maKEs hUI LIn stroNger thaN ever~

The Penultimate Year: the yr of change!!!

2009-08-21T15:48:00.002+08:00

SCHOOOL STARTED AND i'M INTO THE 2ND WEEK OF YR 3 SEM 1!

tHE 1ST 2 YeaRS HAD beeN practically a honey moon for me. getTing involved in FOCs, CCAs meetIng and TKD trainings and havIn a hall on campus to laze my days and nights away without fretting about waking up early in the morning just to beat the morning crowd on trains.

My life has turned upside down with effect from YEAR 3 SEM 1. NO more hall but the comfort of a home to turn to when I'm tired after a day (4 hrs of journey on the train and buses + 3 or > hrs of schOOling)! haha anD i wiLl be seeing HY like more than my famIly coS shE'll be my companion on my "journey to the west" to collect scriptures daily! BUt it's betta than nothing at least we have each other to talk to on the lOng and tiring journey. i'm thankfuL that SG is merely a red dot and not as big as China where we have to take ages to travel from one end to another.

aCADEMICALLy-wise, I realLy hope to "level up" and attain a second-upper degree in 2 years time! my future depends on it and i have to be more pro-active in learNIng and being world-wise. Intentions for overseas exposure and internships are brewing and I really hope to do my utmost besT to pursue my interests in the SG toUrism INdustRy and the bOOming cHINA. I shALL stUdy smarT and not sTUdy too hard in the rigid waY~ aja aja fIGHTINg!!!

ANd after beiNg troUBled for the past 2 weeks over my sparselY scattered 5 day week timetable,I've managed to change it to a 4 day one! yAy frI wiLL bE freE!!! but nOt for entertainmenT alwaYS. iT shaLL be my sTUDy day cuM prOJ day cum relAx daY! noW, I have more reasons to LOOk forward to TGIF and greater motivations to spur me on during scHool days....

tHE flashbacKS of my 21st: a mini- affair >>>

2009-08-21T15:18:00.003+08:00

reaLLY can't believe thaT I'm already 21 yrs and 17 days old!!!=X

celEbrated my 21st @ costa sanDs chaLet with different grps of friends( sec, jC and uni!!!) between 3rd-6th AUG and it was really a memorable and unforgettabLE one due to the haPPy and bad moments that ensued.

I tried to have a different celebration this yr compared to my prior ones which were usually celebrations over some dinner or entertainment. AT leaST it worked out finE and i'm gLAd to have spEnT it in a fuN and coSy way with grEAt coMPANies.

All was well on the first 2 days of celebratIon until the 3rd night when we had a combined celeBration for Yiming and me. The culprit was none other than the BBQ food catered which landed half of us with food poisoning. What was supposed to be a heaRty celebraTion for 2 girls turning 21 turned disastrous when the bday gal and her family started to complain of vommiting and nauseousness at night. One by one, the other two started to experience the same symptoms and we had no choice but to call off the night activity and sent one of them to CGH in the middle of the night. BEing the one who initiated the idea of a chaLet, I realLy felT guilty to have landed my guests in such agony.=X

Despite the complainTS made to the BBQ caterer,the only irresponsible response we got from that was just a mere apology which really didn't help in our circumstances. HopefuLLy, thE NEA will do us some justice or else the phobia that we've developed thereafter this incident would really haunt us on.

it"S now or never...

2009-08-01T22:33:00.000+08:00

God gave us one life. Either you live it to the fullest and treasure every moment lived or regret when it's too late...

I chose the former.

iF you want to live to the fULLESt, start by making a difference to every single individual. U'll never know how impactful u'll be until u tried. ~aJa aJA, fiGHTing HUI LIN!!!=)

Just some thoughts to share abt life after so much that had happened in JUL...

The lotus is the most beautiful flower, whose petals open one by one. But it will only grow in the mud. In order to grow and gain wisdom, first you must have the mud --- the obstacles of life and its suffering. ... The mud speaks of the common ground that humans share, no matter what our stations in life. ... Whether we have it all or we have nothing, we are all faced with the same obstacles: sadness, loss, illness, dying and death. If we are to strive as human beings to gain more wisdom, more kindness and more compassion, we must have the intention to grow as a lotus and open each petal one by one

sHould i?

2009-07-26T19:51:00.000+08:00

I'm in a fix.

duNo whether i should book a chaLet for my bday.

Why I sHould Book:

=> to have fun and something memorable on my bdaY esp when it's my 21st!
=> and now there's a member's promotion 3d2n chaLet at juSt $100 and it's really worth it
=> a stayover plus gd time to catch up with my frens and have heart-to-heart talK into the wee hours of the nIte

What's holding me back:

=> its during the weekdays and my frens may have other commitments eg FOC, work etc... so scared that they cannot make it...
=> will be a waste of $ if no one free to go...
=> and lastly the most crucial reason pulling me back: my parents won't be able to celebrate with me as they have to take care of my critically sick ah gong... and it doesn't sound right for me to have a celebraTion when my ah gOng is gg to leave us anytime.=x

shLD i or shLD i not?

SOMEHOW...

2009-07-25T09:01:00.002+08:00

iT seems that history is repeating itself.

I dunno why but at evry period of the year, it always happens.

Perhaps I think too much but...

I'm contented with the way things are right now.

Friendship shall suffice.

it'S the fiNAl coUNtdoWn!!!

2009-07-25T08:33:00.004+08:00

5 more days of routine work coupled with savoury dishes whipped out by maggie and taDAA!!... my holiday job stint at SMS will end and I can officially plAy and nuA like nobody's business before sch stArts.=D

tHE past few weeks had been pretty busy for me with work, tuit, SHG, gatherings and not to mention the fun on foot challenge which was my 1st time joining an amazing race style of competition with my besties.

caUght "hairY plotter" with tKD peeps and it was just average.There's no climaX and Dumbledore just died so abruptly towards the end of the movie. I certainly could say that the bOok was much more exciting than the movie which was filled with scenes of blooming BGRS between the young adults. lUckily, i caught it @ $6 so it wasn't such an opportunity cost.=x

To do list before sch starts:

NO.1: trEAt my familY to a gd meaL

NO.2: RevamP and tidy up my room. mAKe it as conducive as possible for study and relaxation. I need a gd "baTTle field" to fiGHt the depreciation of my gPA.

No.3: Trim my hair

From JUL 2009 onwards, i sHALL and wiLL...

2009-07-14T00:41:00.006+08:00

continue to give my best in evrything I do especiaLLy in my academics and relationshIps wif my loved ones. A gd balanCe of KinshIp and friendsHip with school and work will be sometHing that I will want to strive for in the second half of the year.

It seemed like yesterday when I was setting my resolutions for the new year 2009 yet in a whiffy, we are already halfway through 2009. Time really waits for no one...I must seize every opportunity that comes along and manage it well.

The most important thing is to hAve a littlE fun each day and be jolly cos life is short. ^^

我們是不是該知足珍惜一切就算沒有擁有

2009-07-04T01:41:00.005+08:00

=稻香= 周杰伦

對這個世界如果你有太多的抱怨

跌倒了就不敢繼續往前走

為什麼人要這麼的脆弱墮落

請你打開電視看看

多少人為生命在努力勇敢的走下去

我們是不是該知足

珍惜一切

就算沒有擁有

還記得你說家是唯一的城堡

隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑

微微笑小時候的夢我知道

不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑鄉間的歌謠永遠的依

回家吧回到最初的美好
不要這麼容易就想放棄

就像我說的 追不到的夢想

換個夢不就得了為自己的人生鮮艷上色

先把愛涂上喜歡的顏色笑一個吧

功成名就不是目的

讓自己快樂快樂這才叫做意義

童年的紙飛機

現在終於飛回我手里所謂的那快樂

赤腳在田里追蜻蜓追到累了

偷摘水果被蜜蜂給叮到怕了

誰在偷笑呢我著稻草人吹著風唱著歌睡著了

哦哦午后吉它在蟲鳴中更清脆

哦哦陽光灑在路上就不怕心碎

珍惜一切就算沒有擁有
還記得你說家是唯一的城堡

隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑微微笑

小時候的夢我知道不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑

鄉間的歌謠永遠的依

回家吧回到最初的美好

Though this is a rather old song, I liKE the attiTude that's in it.shAll try to acHieve wads being advocated in red above.!!!^^

After ah gong's incident, I've learnt to see tHings on a broader view. To cherish and live everyday hapPily as if it's ur last. And not to regret only after u've lost it.

HAve some fun and laughter each day.

it's all in e mind. If u think u will be bored by life's mundane routines, u shall and will be. Learn to adopt a positive mindset and strive towards happiness becos it is in the reach of only those who bother to seek for it psychologically.

Every day is a new beginning filled with mysteries and adventures for you to unravel.

I shall explore by challenging myself to say "YES" to the new and unforeseen experiences.

sLOwly or Somehow, I started to see my purpose in life after so much that had happened.

Primarily as a daughter who has the responsibility to be there for my parents when they age.

Secondary, I want to help get the poor out of the vicious poverty cycle having being a victim to it too.

And the way to contriBute and make a difference is through my volunteering at CDAC on every Sat. Rather than laze my time, these 3 hours spent with the kids will hopefUlly groOm them into young responsible aduLts who will continue to make impacto on others in future.

Thirdly....

FourthLy...

Fifthly....

I'm still in the midst of discovering it.

Till den, i shall continue to make my prescence felT in my 2 roles in life.

wad a greaT daY!

2009-06-28T01:30:00.002+08:00

I haD a great Time with my fellow SHG volunteers @ cash studio kTv!!! (FYI: its e old bedok princess i'm referrin to) =) we were reaLLy hiGh to e maX such that we extended our singing hours till 1130 pm when we were supposed to end at 9 pm.

and the plAce was really coOl with disco ligHts and superb sound systeM. The rooM we got intiallY for 10 pax was darn biG! they converted the princess cinema to a kTV rooM which was reaLLy spacIOUs! And the charges are lesser than that of KBOX and of course abit steeper than teo HEng bUt I feel the ambience they have there was worth the price...so utility was maximised!

oH dear, time reaLLy flies when one is enjoying. Come to think of it, school will be restarting soon in one month's time. hUMPH... duN care muSt reallY enJOy myself to e max b4 the vicious cyCle resumes.

And huiying, wen.... if u happened to read this, haha i realLy can't wait to go out wiTH u gals this hOli like how we used to in e past. haha realiSed that we haven't been meeting much in 2009 except for bdays... haha i want to go wii, sing, drink+ girls'talk!!! mUSt find time in JUL k b4 scH strtS. IF nt it'll be hard to meetup after that...

n thIS is e process of liFe...

2009-06-25T23:20:00.003+08:00

I can't help but reflEct deepLy Upon life's fragility after visiting my cancer-strickened ah gong who had an operation after a bad fall. The ah gong I visited was bedridden @ the ICU with many tubes pricked through his nose, arms and lower body. Though he was still conscious and able to talk, it was a stark contrast to the ah gong I met a few months back during CNY. He was able to walk then. BUt now...hOPefully, he will be able to recover and discharge soon. I really couldn't bear the thought of my ah gong being cooped up in a rOOm that has nothing but four walls and it really hurts to see him suffer from such pain and misery in hospital.

Such is the reality of life. The processes of birth, growth, ageing and death that everyone of us has to go through in our life. No matter how rich, famous, capable one is in his life, one just can't escape from the God of death.

Suddenly, it occurred to me that nothing is more important than having a good health and being able to live happily. Without health, no matter how much money you have in ur savings, you won't be able to enjoy life.

And personally, I don't want to have regrets at my deathbed. TouchwooD la but just my personal tot below...

If doomsday is to be here within half an hour, I want to be the kind who will be able to look back at my life in contentment and with no regrets.

To put it simply, I want to live my whole life to the fullest.

And this starts with a positive mind coupled with the phrase" take action!!!".

To love with all my might. To give and to take.

And lastly, to be the real and unique ME that is truely happY.

oNE life, lIVE it, cOLour IT!!!

=officially sick=

2009-06-18T19:47:00.003+08:00

After 2 weeks of continuous outiNgs+ lack of exercise+ unhealthy diet, i caught the fLU bug..!!! hopefulLy not some H1n1 i hope. I doN't want to be qurantinEd.

UltimaTE siaNess... coS my nose just couldn't stop saliavating while @ work.

NOw is GSS period.... i want to go sHOP and exercise once I get weLL...

wad a bZ daY!!!.... but i'm loving it...

2009-06-12T00:29:00.002+08:00

waS super duper busy @ work till I didn't have the luxury of visiting the ladies... But i LIke it becos the day just zoOMed and before i knew it, KNOCK OFF TIME!!!
Thereafter my work, I went to tuit Lee Yang.

anD tHe next few dayS would be packed to the brim with more and more activities...

wOOts. what an action-packed monTh! ^-^

a great day with great companY !! ^-^

2009-06-11T00:50:00.003+08:00

It was a lovely Wed. HAd a gREAT tIMe shoppinG and catchIng up with hazel, my dear ex-colleague @ OSI whom I had not seen for 2 years. Time really flies, man! All was like a dream.

2 years ago, I was fresh out of JC, waiting for my A levels results and Uni entry. Back then, I was working as a temp receptionist cum admin assist @ OSI. The 3 mths spent there were really experential and meaningful! GaiNEd an insight to the term "office politics" which is commonly used by workinig adults as well as become a victim to it... owell, that'S lIFE..BUT I also got to know great peeps like JEAn, Hazel, Regina who had impacted my life in some way or another. It's really heartening to get in touch with them again once in a while and know that they are doing great! =)

So the period after my temp stint at OSI fast forwarded and va BOOM...I alr completed 2 years in NTU and on my way to the 3rd yr. I must really cherish my years in school and not regret it when i enter the workforce.

ANd we shOPPED shOPPED sHOpped!!! I know my previous post reminded myself not to splurge on shopping sprees but I couldn't help it when i saw this korea-imported bag at Illuma: a big leather sling bag with unique design that was going off at half its original price of $89.90. COntemplated against buying it initially but gave in eventually and bought it home at $45 after I found it to be practical and long-lastIng. fElT so worTh iT!!!

anD yUP, I dyed My hair brown and iTS really loud and A.A( attract attention). Duno to be happy or sad. Happy becos alot of pple realise the change in my hair colour yet sad becos the effect of the colour doesn't complement my skin tone.

wadeva. Just hopE my hair colour will brighten my darkest moments if I happened to have one...

AND i reallY need to exercise!!!!! Cos i'm growin fat from all those binging and goodies that my colleagues had been givin me. it's been 2 weeks since I ran after the marathon.

my whole body is itching for a workout! Shall exercise soOn! Somehow, I like runnIng because it makes me feel alive! I like the way my body listens to the command of the mind even when my muscles are starting to feel sore. Sounds cuckoo la but I really think i reached the mind-and- body- in- nirvana kind of staGE after runNing! LOL.

OH MAN, deficit!

2009-06-07T21:19:00.004+08:00

I realised I've been splurgIng recentLy. OOps...!!! i need more self control...

reminder to self: sAve, save, save!!! pls exercise more self control!

I shall not buy any more clothes from online or shopping sprees no matter how tempting and cheap they are.

I shall buy things that I need! NECESSITY not LUXURY GDS to maximise my utility.

the ONLY luxury gds I can buy:

1) digital camera

2) hp

*ALL ITEMS EXCLUSIVE OF THE ABOVE MENTIONED GDS SHALL NOT BE BOUGHT!*

life is getting abit too mundane...

2009-06-03T23:44:00.002+08:00

Somehow, i'm starting to feel sick of my temp job. I need a breather. And more excitements to rock my life.

Looking forward to the mini getaway this sat with buddy!!! =D

new breakThrough (PART 2) !

2009-06-01T00:35:00.004+08:00

yAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! I COMPLETED ADIDAS SUNDOWN MARATHON 42km!!!!! wahaha...

was really glad that I managed to achieve what I set for myself at the start of the year and that was to complete a marathon. The euphoria and sense of achievement that I've gotten after running for 7 hours was unbelievably great. I'm so proud of myself that I managed to persevere, hang on and run despite the sore muscles that were taking a toil all over my body... Maybe it's the I-have -a-banana-before-the race effect or the fact that is running at night that kept me running continuously for the 1st 25km because usually my threshold is 10km and i will strt to walk thereafter.

SOmehow, I guess it was my mind that did a great job in psychoing my body to keep going despite the weariness. At the start of the race, I kept telling myself to run at least 21km for the first half before stopping. Otherwise, I would definitely not be able to regain my momentum. And so my body abided my mind's instructions and viola! I DID IT WITH A POSITIVE MIND THAT DRIVED MY BODY TO THE FINISHING LINE.

Nonetheless, I could still admit that running 42km wasn't an easy feat because my body went out of my mind's control while I was on my journey back. But thanks to junlong who was constantly keeping to my pace and encouraging me to move on, I conquered the 42km.

I guess this would be my first and last marathon haha... since I just want to challenge myself to a new limit and try for fun... Till then, it would be another 2 weeks before I resume running.

inspired by a commoner...

2009-05-30T01:00:00.003+08:00

tODay there was practically not alot of stuff to do @ work... the oNli thing I needa do was to note e inventories senT in at the cargo lift area. SLACK job man!

haha luckily I had my colleague philip(aka PaPa) there to slack with me...and so he was telling me about his life story. How he managed to work his way up despite the fact that he was in normal acad stream. And his willingness to strive for what he wanted be it in material terms or others really inspired me to be daring to achieve what I plan for my future. I was really amazed by how his foresight for his future manage to realise under such planning. haha now he's my idol because despite being one who isn't really academically wise, he managed to carve a career path for himself and support his family through sheer determination and peserverance. He's really a nice chap whom I can crap around with and I'm glad I have great colleagues at work who made my day.

Note to self:
Start planning for your future and strive towards that direction. Once i've strted working, I must learn how to invest in insurance and property...

M.I.A yet aGain...

2009-05-25T21:22:00.004+08:00

this time he did it again.

did a disappearance stint like how he did a month ago.

Like how history repeated itself, MUmmy called me up while I was working and worriedly ask me to sms him becos he just won't pick any calls. I don't know what's wrong with him but my instinct told me that it must be the gal who made him eMo again. Indeed I was.

I really don't understand him. Why would a big guy like him want to hide from reality? Why couldn't he be strong enough to just pick himself up and moVe on from a relationship which had ended? Why must he still wallow himself in a miserable relationship that won't realize? Though I' m not really a love expert, I see the practicality of making myself live betta than the party who hurt me once. And I'm really glad I did because that's the best revenge.

Did he know what he did really hurt the closed ones who cared about him most? i bet he didN't because despite knowing that MUmmy has heart problems and couldn't stand these kind of shocks, he still repeated the act again. HE really disappointed us.

new breakthrough! ^^

2009-05-24T18:13:00.004+08:00

feLt so accomplished after todaY's saUCony 15km race @ECP because I managed to set another record for myself and that's to complete a race which was originally beyond my physical means... YaY!!! 3 marathons completed so far (from 8.4km to 10km to 15km)....

The jourNEy along the 15km race route was really a test of my physical and mental endurance. Several times, my mind struggled with the idea of walking but luckily thanks to junlong and jaryl who were keeping to my pace, I banished the thought. haha I kept psycho-ing myself not to stop. Otherwise, I'll slow them down. What's more I wanted to make use of this race to prepare my mind for the worst and ardous journey I could expect @ Adidas Sundown.

to sum it up, it's all in the mind! When ur mind is positive, ur body will just autoadjust its mechanism no matter how weary it is... And this goes the same for life, a positive attitude will always drive one towards the direction of his goals despite the barriers that stand in his way... havIng a POSITIVE mIND is half the battle won!

nexT challenge: ADIDAS SUNDOWN MARATHON 42km next week

to be continued...

Soul searching...

2009-05-19T20:32:00.004+08:00

What a typIcal tueS sPent @ work.

With much P/N, material no, warehouse codes, billings to be done to the extent that my eyes started to give way to tireDness. BUt i'm blessed with great peeps like maGGie, amelia and aNa who made my days @ work seem less boring. Though they were malaysians, I'm quite touched by the warmth they've shown towards a "newbie" like me . coMpared to my previous admin job experiences @ other companies, the peeps here are much more bonded and they really take care of you like family. Imagine having freshly cooked lunch served right in e office pantry. Though it is simple fare, it beats gg down to the kopitiams to squeeze with the lunch crowd. What's more, I personally enjoy homecooked food more than those "oily" food sold outside. So it's a double bonus, yay!

This reminded me of an article i read some time ago on "zao bao" with regards to the differences between city dwellers and country folks in rural areas. More often than not, in our pursuit of higher social status, we tend to build walls ard us, hoping that we'll be safe from those harbouring any ill motives. But usually in our attempts to protect ourselves, we became isolated, devoid of happiness due to the lack of human touch that made us truely human.

No matter how much politics exist in the real world, I just don't want to become a puppet of urbanisation.

I want to be the REAL me with no pretense.

To laugh as loud as I want to. Cry as hard as I want to. Talk as much as I want to . Share as much as I have. Love as deep as I like. Hate as much as I do. And most imptly to behave in sync with my feelings. I don't have to be be the kind that everyone will like. I just have to be ME, the one and onlY 100% me.

你不是真正的快乐

2009-05-17T21:46:00.001+08:00

人群中哭着你只想变成透明的颜色

你再也不会梦或痛或心动了

你已经决定了你已经决定了

你静静忍着紧紧把昨天在拳心握着

而回忆越是甜就是越伤人了

越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割

你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色

你决定不恨了也决定不爱了

把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

这世界笑了于是妳合群的一起笑了

当生存是规则不是你的选择

于是妳含着眼泪飘飘盪盪跌跌撞撞的走着

你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色

你决定不恨了也决定不爱了

把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐你的伤从不肯完全的癒合

我站在你左侧却像隔着银河

难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了然后才后悔着

你值得真正的快乐你应该脱下你穿的保护色

为什麽失去了还要被惩罚呢

能不能就让悲伤全部结束在此刻

重新开始活着

Somehow this song depicts the mood I'm in right now...

eLmo without the L

2009-05-17T20:44:00.004+08:00

iTS been days since I've updated...

Life's been rather mundane with work from 830am-6pm on mon-fri followed by tuits and SHG on weekends. SOmehow, I'm starting to feel bored having worked only for 2 weeks when my contract is expected to end in 2 and 1/2 mths time... everyday, I'll be looking forward to my knock off time at 6pm as well as the arrival of FRi. And often weekends just has to pass so swiftly. Well, I know i"m not the only one facing this but if this were to happen to me in the next 40 years once i've stepped out to work, it'll be so sick man! At least for now, it's just for a few mths...I really can't bear the thought of being stucked to a 9-5 office job in future... will be bored to death lo...>_<

Come to think of it. Maybe I should consider a job in the airlines industry to fulfil my dream of travelling ard the world... OR Teaching to make impactO on the younger generations? argh, I'm still seeking the answer to where my career interest lies...alritEx, shall make it a point to unravel my real interests this holi. =)

And I felt so emO for the past few days...really sorry to frens whOm i've dao-ed becos of tt.

Somehow, I felt lost.
Lost for words, lost of happiness, lost of freedom/time...

In the past when I'm too free, I'll always complain of boredom. But now that my life is packed to the max, I felt kinda strained and sick of the routine. What is is that I actually yearned for? Freedom? Or living my life to the fullest?

Completed!

2009-05-10T19:34:00.003+08:00

CLeared my kayaking one-star course today after 2 days of lessons @ Kallang PA Water Venture... Yay! Can go kayak @ Bedok Reservoir which is just across my house. I've been wanting to do that evrytime I go jogging ard e reservoir and now I can. =D

Today's lesson was interesting in the sense that we learnt how to do rescue work out in the deep open sea as well as have a mini expedition to the SG flyer area. Though it was tiring and difficult to stay on course, the scenery out there was worth the effort. I shall clock my kayaking hours during this vacation and aim to move on to a 2-star... more practice pls!

Kayaking for these 2 days was great and I'm sure I would grow to like it.

My very first blog!

2009-05-09T21:52:00.004+08:00

finAlly here's my very own blog...! welcome welcome...

Well, I'm not really used to the idea of blogging because all along I've had the habit of penning down my thoughts in my diary. Traditional ain't I? that's me... Nonetheless, I would still like to join in the crowd and create a platform for myself to share the fond memories and experiences I've had.

The uni exams has long ended and it's been 2 weeks into my 3-mth-long summer vacation... yayness! like finally la! A time to chillout with my dear friends whom I haven't seen for months, gain new experiences and enjoy myself to the fullest before the vicious cycle of lec-tut-projs -exams repeats itself again next sem. To think that I still have 4 more sems to clear before grad...Too long or too short? Seems like I'm in between. Too long because I still have to go through the worst which is not over yet and too short as I'm graduating soon like in 2 yrs time. Sometimes I can't help but wonder whether I have really reached the maturity level of a 21year old grown-up. The childishness in me hasn't changed...

To sum it all : I'm just a i-dun-want-to-grow-up girl living in a you-have-to-grow-up-kind of world...

Enough of rantings. Here's the to-do-list on my mind for this suMmer:

1) Spend as much quality time as possible wiTh my family whom I've really been neglecting due to my stay in hall for the past 2 yrs...

2) Catch up with my dearest frens whom I haven't seen for quite some time... really missed the fun I had with those peeps... so OUtiNGs, OutiNGs and more outingS to come!!!

3) Earn $$$ and most imptly, to save them for my next holi trip, diving course! Shld be attainable pRovided I save my keep from my temp admin job cum part time tutor cum part time events job wisely... I SHALL NOT succumb to the temptations of online shOppIng... haha but then again, its really cheap and worth it to shop online...

4) Continue to strive towards my resolutions set at the start of the year and make impactO!

5) Complete the upcoming races: Saucony race (15km) and Adidas Sundown Marathon 2009(42km)

6) Continue to make a difference to the CDAC SHG kids as well as to my 3 kids: Junel, Lee Yang and Nurul.

7) Learn something new like kayaking (in the process), korean language ( in the process), hip hop dance(maybe at CCs? cos I really envy those who can really groove well to the beat of music. So must make a personal breakthrough despite being bad @ body coordination)and maybe pick up photography? but i need a proper camera to start with...

8) ChionG Korean, HK dramas, taiwanese variety shows and Bleach anime that I've missed...

9) PLan a mini getaway if time permits... Maybe some diving trip to neighboring island like Tioman or Rendang? I feel like taking a deep plunge into the ocean to unravel the wonders that lies beneath..DIVING! Or some shopping trip in m'sia...whatever it is, I really need to take a breather away from the concrete jungle that i'm in.

10) Seek solace in the comfort of novels coupled with songs from my fav radio station YES 933 would make my days swee enough!

11) during exams: input>output = weight gain
after exams: output> input = weight loss thru exercise...

work, sleep, play!!! =D

A.V.R.I.L.Y.N.

Sometimes I wonder...

~end of CNY holi marks the official start of my last sem in NTU~

I must remind myself always that...

The fact is...

或许快乐是那么容易的。

Race against time.

Our 5th Month-sary!

My 2011 resolutions! ( tot i just wrote mine for 2010 not long ago!)

29th Dec 2010: After movie shots!

29th Dec 2010: Guiliver's Travel with u!

Picture perfect moment II

Picture perfect moment I

This xmas I gave you my heart and I hope our love will last forever~

timE to start afresh!

Just Day 2 into my holi...

Holiday: Day 1

1 more day to exam but 1 more week to freedom =)

3 months.

Counting down to the end of the SEM!

快乐不起来~

STRESSED UP!!! =(

最近比较忙。。。

=) I shall make this my daily motto...

it's never too late to live, learn, love!

my 1st month in sch after 9 months of holi...

Into week 2 of sch! =)

Just when I thought I have reached my saturation point...

Love makes the world goes round~

Just dance!

back in Singapore for more than a month! =)

14th January 2010

long outdated post~ 13/1/10 Arrival in Shanghai...

long outdated post~ farewell SG, hellO sHanghai! (Part 2) 13/1/10

long outdated posT~ farewell SG, hello Shanghai! (Part 1) 13/1/10

long daY no. 2...

a lONg day...

My 2010 resolutions

Goodbye 2009, heLLO 2010!

post xmas celebration with guzheng gals..

=Reflections of the happenings in 2009=

mErrY merry xmas!

~no camp for 2010~

camp b4 departure.

my travel companion in china...

met-ups

就是开不了口让他们知道。。。

examS finALLy enDED!

tipping point. not.

rOUND 2, fiGHT!

so MANy deadlINes to meet...*rants*

call me a slowpoke.

pRojects are squeezing me dry...

yAyness!!! ^^

tHis is what I mUST do!

headache, headache go away!

心灰意冷

a reasOn for me to keep on running from now till Nov...

joLted to my senses...

The Penultimate Year: the yr of change!!!

tHE flashbacKS of my 21st: a mini- affair >>>

it"S now or never...

sHould i?

SOMEHOW...

it'S the fiNAl coUNtdoWn!!!

From JUL 2009 onwards, i sHALL and wiLL...

我們是不是該知足 珍惜一切 就算沒有擁有

wad a greaT daY!

n thIS is e process of liFe...

=officially sick=

wad a bZ daY!!!.... but i'm loving it...

a great day with great companY !! ^-^

OH MAN, deficit!

life is getting abit too mundane...

new breakThrough (PART 2) !

inspired by a commoner...

M.I.A yet aGain...

new breakthrough! ^^

Soul searching...

你不是真正的快乐

so MANy deadlINes to meet...rants

我們是不是該知足珍惜一切就算沒有擁有